Hey all.
Hope we're all ok and we've all had a good week. I'm good ^^ been very busy over on Fur Affinity uploading most of my adult stuff that I've got on this freshly rebooted laptop. Yeah it's been shutting down on itself for a fuckin while now and I got fed up so wiped it clean and I have loadsa space once more!! I had my meeting at the college to finally make the decision whether or not I was going to return, and as much as I'd like to....right now financially, it's too much. The loan wouldn't be a problem, it would be the support after that and getting myself through it buying my materials and stuff, I wouldn't be able to so for now...I can't. Besides...the guy I saw told me a lot of good things he was brutally honest about my work as expected but at the time it knocked me, it made me question whether or not I should continue drawing. I hadn't drawn in days until I did a hentai sketch and I thought to myself...I love this. When I have a pencil in my hand and a pad...the things I create and make I love with all of my heart. Infact it's the only thing next to my family that I love equally as much. So...in a way I felt a sense of liberation...sure the guy may have slated my work and said it's sonic...and no it's not set in the real world...but you know what? Thats fine, I enjoy it. It gives me a release from the grey of daily life...and gives my mind an escape to experiment and try different things. If I wanted my project to be set in the real world, I would have done, I'm in no way saying the tutor was wrong after all he's been in the industry and knows his stuff DILIGENTLY, I admire his passion and his honesty, after all I don't wanna be told i'm great when I'm not. But I look in a different way to him, maybe if I went back to college I may find a new path...maybe...but for now what I do in my time and what I create is good enough for me. If it's the same old stuff day in day out so? in my head it's magical, I have a whole world spinning in my head and slowly but surely I'm beginning to show people what that looks like and to me it's exciting! sure it's derived from another art style but hey! what isn't? I feel very upbeat and pretty good right now =3 don't know why as there's some things wrong ie...my kidneys but I got a result back and the protein thats leaking...is SLOOOOWLY starting to stop...thankfully! I had an almost severe hypo today but I caught it in the bud just! Stopped breathing for like 3 seconds...couldn't get air in my lungs but I'm good! Had a lovely dinner with my folks today as tomorrow it's their 24th anniversary and it's awesome seeing them together, and as their eldest son having observed many walks of life from friends and aquaintances I'm lucky. Very lucky to have the parents that god saw fit to bless me with, plus it's mum's birthday next sunday and I wanna TRY and get something done...I'm gonna give it my all to draw something nice for her which I've never done before for her EVER!! and I feel bad for it....so...Page 10 and 11 are still in the roughing stages as it's a complicated composition I'm working on but I do have some other things I GUESS i can put up but anyway I'm waffling! As soooo many of my friends LOVE ^^ *feels their deathly gazes piercing a hole through my skull* Anyway, I'm off no to cause mass deviant hijinx in my pad so toodles peeps!
Have a good night and rest well all!
Love to Everyone!

James