Hey all.
So...I'm back. I had a lovely time over in ireland for the 3 weeks I was there, didn't miss much, obviously I missed my mum and dad but everyone else I just forgot about because I concern myself with them when I'm here, when I'm on holiday I fuck everything else off out of it. The weather was gorgeous, the sunniest I've ever known ireland to be and it was sublime! I spent my time thinking and pondering over life and what's happened this year and last especially with my brother and the obstacles he's surpassed and the many that still lay before him, I thought about family and about how much I love my irish heritage and how I'll be taking any opportunity I can from now on to get out there. We even discussed the possibility of a move out there (that's me and nick). It would definitely be cool but there's a lot to consider and to sort out, but that's for the next few years not for now. Right now I'm riddled with a cold which is lovely and without the protection of a flu jab it's having a fuckin riot underneath my skin, Nick's got his resection in the next few weeks so he's gonna be having a short stay in hospital which will be routine just to make sure everything that's put back is working as it should without any complications. After that nick's talking of going out to ireland for recuperation but that again is up in the air. I...well I'm focussing on myself I've come back with a lot more focus and determination and I'm generalising, I'm not being specific because I'm not in the first instance, there are many things afoot in my life that need sorting out, one of them is health, I've had incidents in the last few months where I really should have been put in a hospital bed but because of how I've dealt with them I've been alright, what I'm talking about will seem unfamiliar to many but it's hypoglycaemic awareness, mine is shot to pieces, I don't have it any more so when I have a hypo I wont be able to tell if it's serious or not until I'm either almost comatose or I've collapsed in a supermarket....which happened btw. I'm keeping a much closer eye on things and trying to alter my dosages and levels as I go, I've got other signals that my body gives off to when I'm having a hypoglycaemic attack so I can tell when i'm having one so I can catch it in the bud. But its a situation that throws shadows over a lot of opportunities that because of legal implications I'm a bit wary of proceeding with. Every thing's ok apart from that I guess just a lot more...stringent I think the word is, I don't understand a lot of whats happened over the last few months with myself and why Icontinue to concern myself with them to the point where it potentially ruins my holiday, so...no more. I'm sure it will all become clear to many very soon but we'll see if I'm proven wrong. Anyway thats really all peeps not much else to say other than....if you're a metal/grunge fan GET ALICE IN CHAIN'S NEW ALBUM!! The power of Christ compels you too !!! Tis daaaaaaamn gooooood!! Anyway laters peeps I'm getting tired as this virus has a house party in my head!

James